who we are, who He is… true freedom-

Kamran woke up on the morning of Jan 16 and said to me, “Last night I had a dream…”

 It was the night of Martin Luther King’s birthday and the 500-year anniversary of Martin Luther’s thesis that sparked the reformation.

Martin Luther taught that salvation and, consequently, eternal life are not earned by good deeds but are received only as the free gift of God's grace through the believer's faith in Jesus Christ as redeemer from sin. What a shock to the papal system.


His thesis challenged some of the practices of the Catholic church and was described as ‘a scholarly objection to church practices.’


The Latin Theses were printed in several locations in Germany in 1517. In January 1518 friends of Luther translated the Ninety-five Theses from Latin into German. Within two weeks, copies of the theses had spread throughout Germany; within two months, they had spread throughout Europe.


So we celebrated the 500-year anniversary of the letter that changed history, the printing press that got it to the masses and the awaking that started the reformation.


On this night Kamran had a dream.

I saw myself with The Lord’s disciples. We were all sitting in a circle. It felt that I was sitting with them at the beginning of their walk with The Lord.

Then I looked to my left and there was The Lord sitting close to me looking straight ahead and I was staring at the right side of His Face.

Then I knew something immediately in my spirit. I knew it was the truth.

“The more we believe who we are, the more He WILL be who He is.

The more we believe who we are, the more He CAN be who He is.”

His growth to fully manifest who He is in us is directly connected to our belief about who we are in Him.

Somehow I knew His growth desperately needed the growth of our belief about ourselves and who we are.

 Then Christ grows not only in us but with us. We grow together.

Can you imagine Christ growing with you?

We grow with Him as He grows with us.

 Then one of the disciples started to talk with passion about The Lord.

In my spirit I knew another truth and I said:

“I know now why they would die for Him. They have so much passion for Him.”

But still, I knew this was the beginning of their walk and passion for Christ. 

This passion started at the beginning and continued to grow as they came to the knowledge of who they were in Him. He grew in them through their faith and passion as they grew in knowing themselves in Him.

There is much freedom in this wisdom just as we know the reformation stood for a newfound freedom. Jan 15th was also Martin Luther King’s b-day- peacemaker/civil rights activist- drawing much of his inspiration from Mahatma Ghandi.

This is an era of real freedom in the person of Jesus. Not what we learn in systemized religious practices but what we learn from knowing ourselves and who we are in Him. Not by good deeds, but by loving ourselves, our neighbors and our Jesus.

Here is the last paragraph of Martin Luther King’s famous speech titled:

 “I Have A Dream:”

“When we allow freedom to ring-when we let it ring

from every city and every hamlet, from every state and

every city, we will be able to speed up that day when all

of God's children, black men and white men, Jews and

Gentiles, Protestants and Catholics, will be able to join

hands and sing in the words of the old Negro spiritual,

Free at last, Free at last, Thank God almighty we are free at last.”

                                                                         -Martin Luther King Jr.

“The more we believe who we are, the more He WILL be who He is.”

                                                                         -Kamran Yaraei

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Creative Wonderworking Pioneers-

“Artists are put on this earth to explore, to push the boundaries, to ask yet more questions, and sometimes to do away with- or at least challenge-traditional assumptions. Creatives constantly think of new ways to embrace the world. Creatives bring on society’s growing pains. The exploratory nature of creativity makes it scary at times. But it also adds intrigue and sizzle to life and moves the mundane into a realm of wonder.”

These excerpts are from an inspiring fave book, “The Soul Tells a Story,” by Vinita Hampton Wright.

Radical pioneer creatives are never satisfied. We must always push the systems out and usher the mystery in. We must look at the works through our kaleidoscope eye gates and paint and write and dance the wonder into our new works. This is our call. We are not rebels though rejection is inevitable. We are not called to fit in. This will bring a certain amount of pain that must be processed and dealt with in a healthy way with trusted friends and coaches. We are not angry. We are misunderstood. So what? We should not concern ourselves with pinches of pharisaical pointing of fingers nor should we Debbie down ourselves. Self pity sucks invention and lies to the soul gagging the creative spirit. Hope it up! Joy it up! Shine it up! A fraction of our light can undo myriads of muffled colors. Never give up!

We are true to our spirit guts that say- “Hey people- there is so much to discover on the other side of that wall. I will absolutely, positively climb it and paint the other side with possibilities! Anyone up for scaling?”

This is the invention of the forerunner.
The heart of the faithful trailblazer.

Sometimes gently we rock the cradle of ritual. Sometimes violently we cram the safeguards back into the boxes they were born in and we burn them into a funeral pyre of needed farewells.

Yet, we remain tender, broken, passionate, and ready to learn. Always ready to begin again.

This is a true creative wonder-working pioneer.

If this is you: join the Spontaneous tribe.

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The Heart is Calling to Be Seen


One day the I heard the Lord say,

“I don’t just live in your heart, Kamran, I AM your heart.”


See, many of us as Christians have been wanting to see Christ.

The truth is we can see Him and find Him in our hearts and the hearts of others.


When you look at people,

don’t look just at the outward appearance or what they do or say.

Go deep, look into their hearts.

When you talk to them, try to bypass them and talk to their heart.

Pass their faces and go straight to the heart.

Then you will find and see Jesus.

Look at their heart as you talk to them. You can find Christ in hearts.



Start talking to the heart.

The heart is calling you.

Is there anyone out there to answer the call of the heart?


When you talk to the hearts of people, you are talking to Jesus.

When we talk to our own hearts, we are talking to Jesus.

Jesus wants to talk to us—let's talk to Him.

He wants to be touched—let us touch hearts.


I was walking on a street of Manhattan, New York one day.

All of a sudden I saw Jesus in every single person.

I could see Him with my eyes open.

Now I understand what I saw. I saw people’s hearts.

In their hearts I saw Jesus.

Not that He was welcomed in every single person's heart,

but He revealed Himself to me through their hearts.


He doesn’t have to abide in someone’s heart in order to come out of his or her heart.

He can come out of someone’s heart just through a small act of love.

Because he lives in everyone’s heart whether they have acknowledged Him or not.

For he made everything and everyone on this planet.


We normally have our opinion about where Jesus should hang out.

It might offend us to see Him walking out of some unsaved person’s heart.

Pharisees had an opinion about when and how to heal the sick

and where Jesus should or shouldn’t hang out.

They were so offended by Him hanging out with sinners.

Pharisees were waiting for their super Messiah and God came out of a manger

—that was offensive.

Now the idea of Jesus showing Himself to us

through different people of the world might offend us also.

But the truth is, He is God,

and normally He shows Himself in places that we least expect Him to be.


Prayer of Mother Teresa:

"Grant that, even if You are hidden under the unattractive disguise of anger,

of crime, or of madness, I may recognize You and say,

‘Jesus, You who suffer, how sweet it is to serve You’”

(In the Heart of the World, P 105).


Another time the Lord told me,

“I don’t want you just lead people to Me,

I want you to lead people’s hearts to Me.”


Now the question is:

How can I lead people’s hearts to Jesus if I don’t learn to see their hearts first?

How can we lead people anywhere unless we see them first?

We have to be able to see someone first in order to lead them somewhere.


I believe serving people’s hearts is to serve Jesus.

Even serving the heart of a criminal is serving Jesus.

Let us serve HEARTS.

Let us learn to see people’s hearts.

Let us pay attention to every single person's heart that God put in our lives.

It doesn’t matter if they are good or bad, nice or mean, beautiful or ugly.


Let us serve Christ by serving hearts.


Heart servants of the world,

The call is out-

Who wants to answer?


Help us, Jesus, to see the heart of the ones we want to lead to You.


The Only Good Fear


Reform: make changes in (something, typically a social, political, or economic institution or practice) in order to improve it.


God is raising up reformers! This is what I received on Yom Kippur! I have been studying Catholic mystic female saints for some time now. My studies got really intense as I got into the14th and 15th centuries of renaissance Italian-Dominican women mystics. Succumbed to the turmoil of the Renaissance and the perverse papal families and systems, the people were ready for any hope of something true. These women moved in great miracles, visitations, conversing with angels, translations, and even physical signs such as stigmata. All of these manifestations had to be proven in the Catholic tradition of intense interrogation. These saints were declared authentic and were held in high regard in politics, community, and among popes, rulers, and lay people. In this way, they were able to bring the prophetic language and the call to repentance into the heart of the region.


The Lord bestowed these women with all these gifts and the power of the Holy Spirit and gave them favor with the popes and leaders of their country:

  • to bring reform,

  • to bring the corrupt politicians to their knees,

  • to not compromise,

  • to lay their lives down for what they believed,

  • to implore the wealthy clergy to go back and remember what true Christianity really is: Jesus as their Savior and the spouse of the earth,

  • to live a life of holiness and the fear of the Lord,

  • and to turn from the perverse wants of the flesh and hypocrisy that had become the norm.


As many know, the life of these sisters and monks were severe at best—with mortifications and rules that were strict beyond our understanding. But let's look at what God used them for and ask ourselves…


Will I be a reformer for Jesus Christ?

Will I stand for the fear of the Lord and holiness in my life?

Will I learn what it means to be a true follower of Jesus and strive with the Holy Spirit to walk it out?


There have been many reformation movements throughout history. Why? Humanity cannot stay lined up with God’s best for us. We believe it will be constricting to live a life of true worship and holiness. We want comfort, we want to follow our fleshly desires wherever it takes us—yet it is the exact opposite, as those who walk in "the spirit of the Lord" well know. It is freedom and joy and love everlasting. I am reforming my own life first and then I hope to be a good example/ reformer.


Will you be a reformer in your own life and in your sphere of influence?


Ps 40:9-10  NLT

I have told all your people about your justice.
    I have not been afraid to speak out,
    as you, O Lord, well know.
10 I have not kept the good news of your justice hidden in my heart;
    I have talked about your faithfulness and saving power.
I have told everyone in the great assembly
    of your unfailing love and faithfulness.


Here is my poetry explosion from this journey:


“The Only Good Fear”


O pious, brave and worthy saints of old

in the great cloud overlooking us

I cannot aspire to the severe lives you led

I can’t even want to, it is so far from my grid

yet in your lives I see part of my heart

my soul crying out

yearning to set apart

my love for my Savior

to stand up where my flesh wants to sit down

to sing out where my song wants to go along

with the sound of the throng

to speak out when I am afraid someone will shout me down wrong

to be brave in the name



true and tried

You spouse, me bride

hold my hand again

and walk me through eventide

until I stand for what I believe in

and only good fear rules me

awesomeness of You

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Yom Kippur for those who do not know—is the holiest day of the year in Judaism. Its central themes are atonement and repentance. It is a time of retrospection to review your heart and get right with God on a personal level. The 10 days leading up to this Holy Day are called Days of Awe with serious introspection of where we stand with our brethren. It is a time of moving in repentance, forgiveness, and reconciliation. In my opinion, this is the heart of Jesus and something we should all do every day. The Holy Spirit woke my husband and I together at 4 am on Yom Kippur. Here is what we received:


Notice all the fours in the Scriptures we received!

Here is the first Scripture Kamran received:

Isaiah 50:4

The Sovereign LORD has given me his words of wisdom, so that I know how to comfort the weary. Morning by morning he wakens me and opens my understanding to his will.


Family Style Gatherings


As soon as we sat up, we were both thinking about our meeting we call Chocolate Church. We felt God encouraging us on this family style meeting where we have recently been discouraged. It is a gathering style that He loves and wants to bring to inspire many people! So we wait on Him to see what He will do with the locations.


Healing in the Fields


We both saw a lot about “healing in the fields.” We believe we will all begin seeing many miracles of healings and wonders in seemingly small natural style gatherings. And hey—let's take 'em to the fields! This also represents the “fields of harvest.” Great healing is coming in the harvest of humanity—to fall in love with Jesus.


Help humanity fall in love with Jesus and know His love for them. This is the new evangelism track. We must be in love with Him and know He loves us before we can show the world. Be the example. Are you in love with Him? Do you know He loves you? Really? We must seek for this to be the main theme of our lives so they will come to know Jesus by our love. Not striving to convert people with old ideas and tracks.  We lead them into our own hearts of love for Him and they will want what we have. Jesus. Period. The beginning. The end.




I saw beautiful white wheat all over the world reminding me of the ripe and ready cornfields of Switzerland this summer.


John 4:34-38


Then Jesus explained: “My nourishment comes from doing the will of God, who sent me, and from finishing his work.

“You know the saying, ‘Four months between planting and harvest.’ But I say, wake up and look around. The fields are already ripe for harvest.

“The harvesters are paid good wages, and the fruit they harvest is people brought to eternal life. What joy awaits both the planter and the harvester alike!

“You know the saying, ‘One plants and another harvests.’ And it’s true.

 “I sent you to harvest where you didn’t plant; others had already done the work, and now you will get to gather the harvest.”



Worship in Spirit and Truth


John 4:23-24

But the time is coming—indeed it’s here now—when true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and in truth. The Father is looking for those who will worship him that way.  

For God is Spirit, so those who worship him must worship in spirit and in truth.”


John 4:23-24 is a lifetime teaching of mine (my online course will start with this). All the 4’s!!!


Here is the "kingdom dynamic" study blog from my Bible:


4:23, 24: Honest Worship, PRAISE AND WORSHIP. It is the believer’s responsibility to discover how the Lord wants to be worshiped and to explore and cultivate a relationship with Him out of which sincere, Holy Spirit-enabled worship will flow. Jesus instructs it; worship in “spirit”—that is, alive through new birth (John 1:12, 13; 3:6, 7) and aglow with Holy Spirit enablement (I Corinthians 14:15). This is not mechanical, rote, or merely human activity, but dynamically capacitated spiritual action. “In truth” emphasizes biblical integrity joined to personal honesty, manifest in a heart of sincerity, a humble manner of transparency, and a relational integrity. Meaning and being what we say, as well as being spiritually energized in our worship, opens the way to that worship the Father seeks. 


We emphasize spiritual action: Kamran went to take time alone after our initial God alarm at 4am. He felt the Lord was showing him that this would be a year of Jesus in action. Can’t wait to see what that looks like in all of our lives.


Also to emphasize this is the first time I have ever read that blog (I don’t know how that happened), and it is so real and right on with what God has been showing me about the Y-spontaneous worship course I am starting. So to learn more about what He is showing me, sign up or purchase the course in December.


The Lonely Road—Cultures, Choirs, and Rock Bands


I saw a “lonely road” that went on forever. It was winding through valleys and deserts. It was beautiful land. There was a line of people on this road—thousands in single file. No one knew there was someone in front or behind each other. They were slouched over, looking down at their feet, depressed and moving forward like robots. They could not see any of the beautiful landscape. The line of people and the road seemed to go on forever.


Then I saw a group of people not too far away from this lonely road. They were jumping and waving at these people. “Hey, come over here! Hey! Come join us!” But it was like they were deaf, blind, and dumb.


This other group was worshiping God with wild and holy abandon. The wildest, holiest worship I have ever seen. A choir of people of all cultures were singing with an orchestra a new song—fast and beautiful with an irresistible beat. There was no way you could not dance with all your heart and might. I heard, “This is the CULTURE CHOIR and the ROCK BAND.” 


Cultures Choirs will begin to emerge in this season singing several languages of songs—each country singing the songs and languages of other countries. Rock Bands will emerge—groups of musicians, artists, and singers—holy creatives—sold out for the passion of Jesus, walking in the fear of the Lord and holiness, no compromise. Standing on the rock.


Psalm 18:46


The Lord lives! Praise to my Rock! May the God of my salvation be exalted!


Psalm 40

For the choir director: A psalm of David.

I waited patiently for the LORD to help me, and he turned to me and heard my cry.

He lifted me out of the pit of despair, out of the mud and the mire. He set my feet on solid ground and steadied me as I walked along. 

He has given me a new song to sing, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see what he has done and be amazed. They will put their trust in the LORD.

Oh, the joys of those who trust the LORD, who have no confidence in the proud or in those who worship idols.


The new song will be the key that sets the captives free. Entire unrehearsed new songs will burst from these choirs and musicians. These songs will sound totally pre-written but will be new, unrehearsed songs coming on the spot with completion. Not just a prophetic phrase. These new songs and this sound will draw the people into this worship from “the lonely road” and heal them. The new song will open the eyes of the depressed….


Many will see what he has done and be amazed. They will put their trust in the LORD.


It’s Raining Feathers


I saw feathers raining from heaven like soft yet heavy rainfall meaning the feathers were thick—falling like showers of rain all over the earth in specific areas. I heard, "My glory will fall on specific cities. Cities of refuge. Moravian Falls is one of these. There are many more.”


I heard this song that I once sang in Brazil spontaneously, "Your glory, oh Lord, is pressing down. And the glory in us is rising up to meet You." This song brought the presence of God so strong we all ended up on our faces. We sang it in English and Portuguese for a very long time over and over.


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He will cover you with his feathers. He will shelter you with his wings. His faithful promises are your armor and protection.


The feathers represent His glory but also His shelter and protection. We must stay under His guidance, His love, and His will to survive the era we are in. Learning a new level of hearing His voice for our lives and for a deeper relationship with Father.


It’s Raining Keys


I saw keys raining down from heaven. Certain people were reaching up and catching them. They knew the keys were for them. Other people were not paying attention and the keys were literally hitting them on the head and falling to the ground. The people catching them could pick up any key that the other people missed as well as the ones they caught. 


These are keys from God to open doors no man can shut. The people who are tuned into God will receive many keys for the opening of these doors—doors for them as well as others to walk in and know Him. God is looking for people He can give His keys to. (This resonates with John 4:23-24—the Father is looking for those who will worship Him in spirit and truth for these will be the ones that catch and pick up the keys: the keys of David). Most of humanity is not paying attention to the ONE TRUE GOD. So there are many keys falling to the ground. 


The key of David represents unlocking great authority and releasing of favor in governments and more:


  • true, true, true worship

  • harvest evangelism. 

  • miracle, signs, wonders

  • intimacy with the Godhead


What else can you identify that the keys represents?


Revelation 3:7-8


“Write this letter to the angel of the church in Philadelphia. This is the message from the one who is holy and true, the one who has the key of David. What he opens, no one can close; and what he closes, no one can open:

“I know all the things you do, and I have opened a door for you that no one can close.


Revelation 4 is titled Worship In Heaven in the NLT. NAS titles it Scene in Heaven and The Throne and Worship of the Creator. Study this throne room vision of worship that John experienced. I would say this is the wildest worship anyone could imagine!  We must get OUT OF OUR TINY LITTLE CLOSED MINDSETS.


Let’s get under the wings, worship with all our hearts, and take the keys to the kingdom with authority to unlock doors for ourselves, our families, and our communities!!!

I take the Blame!


Yes, I was wrong.

I didn’t see the whole picture. I was wrong and it caused a problem.

It was my lack of attention and responsibility that caused this pain.

Please forgive me.

I want you to know that I didn’t want to intentionally cause this problem.

I take the blame.

I take full responsibility for my actions or lack of actions that caused this problem.

Yes, I do take the blame.

I embrace the blame.


Teach me Lord to embrace the blame when it is mine.


There is freedom when I embrace the blame.

There is freedom when I embrace the pain.

There is freedom when I admit that I was wrong and ask for forgiveness.


Normally I get angry when people blame me

and want to make me responsible for a problem.


Now I see if I take the blame and make it mine,

the blame will lose its power over my soul and spirit.


No one can truly have Jesus in their heart and experience salvation and freedom

if they don’t admit they are sinners at some point in their life.

And then again at many points in life’s journey.

Admitting, repenting and forgiving is total freedom and joy.

It’s not just a good idea.


Christ took the blame from us and became the blame—He became sin.

It works the same with others.

How can the Lord take care of something between us and others

if we don’t take the blame?

We take it, then He takes it.


Can Christ take the blame if we don’t take it first?

Can Christ take care of something that went wrong between us and our neighbors

if one of us doesn’t take the blame first?

What happens when we take the blame?

Christ will take it from us—that is freedom.

Then why am I running from my own freedom?

Is that carrying my cross daily?


See, admitting our wrongdoing toward each other is not as bad as we think.

Like the thief on the cross who asked Jesus for forgiveness.

The thief took the blame and got saved.

Now I am learning to embrace and make the blame mine.

Working our my salvation.

There is resurrection power waiting for us on the other side of the blame.

How can I be resurrected if I don’t take any blame?

Even Jesus was blamed falsely and His Father used the fall of man's blame.

Jesus didn’t try to defend and reject the blame.


Now that we talked about making the blame ours and owning the blame,

the question is: How much blame do I own?

How much blame do I take responsibility for?

If I didn’t take any responsibility for blame,

then how do I expect any resurrection in my life?

Resurrection comes after owning the blame.

As long as we embrace the blame, we will be resurrected.

It doesn’t matter if the blame is right or wrong.


Lord, please help us as we learn to own the blame and give it back to You.

Yes they are all mine now, I make them my own.

Now Jesus, You take them out of our hands.

You took the blame for us on the cross.

Now take them again.


We bring all these blames to the foot of Your cross and lay them there.

We made them ours, now they are not ours anymore.

You wanted us to own them in order to bring them to You.

Now take them and allow us to experience resurrection power!

Thank you beautiful Jesus! You beautiful One!

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The Angry Gatekeeper, the Filthy Synagogue and a Little Swiss Pride


the old broom leans in the corner, beckoning…

the minorets blare like agonized demon lullabies

as the heated Hebrew words

echo through the ancient synagogue

where the bitter guard spews his accusations on my friend

hunkered on a cheap white plastic chair

a contrast to the dusty old décor

and what it could be

i hang my head

the heart breaks at the contradiction

of holy history and disrespect

islam and anger

brother hating brother

hanging in the atmosphere

where isis is recruiting

just outside the archaic synagogue

where Jesus, son of God

king of love, table turner

speaks the scroll into existence

those thousands of years ago

Isaiah 61

and he’s on the run

chased to a precipice

he slips



where prayers of brave saints

and guns of tender age

keep terrorists at bay

the shock of spiritual vomit

and mounds of trash

on heritage sites

still hits hard

as we search in anticipation

for the clean wonder of God

the crystal clear presence

we mourn for His hometown

his country

his humanity

… He has let go of all His rights

to wait

until another time

to sweep the whole mess

back into His great laundromat heart



in another land

not too far

the sound of a different shofar

blows the healing mountain air

through the pristine chapel

in the French alps

esteemed land

preserved and honored

from the manicured ground to the painted sky

we could all take lessons

from a little swiss pride

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1The Garden Door


When we give our hearts to the Lord, He begins to impart many things into them.

He loves to work in our hearts and make them into beautiful gardens of His love.

After walking with the Lord for a while,

He will start to impart revelations into our hearts.

To me, those revelations are like good soil

that will allow His love to grow faster and stronger in our hearts.


Sometimes we want to share the good soil, teachings, and revelations with other people.


But there is something we should be aware of.


No matter how much good soil we may have to share,

the doors of people's gardens need to be open in order to receive.


Let us remember that it took the Lord many years to impart the good soil into our hearts, and it may take more time than we imagined

for Him to OPEN the doors of other's hearts to receive what we have.


No matter how good and powerful our teaching, revelation, and testimonies are,

we still need people’s hearts to be open to receive them.

The only one who can open hearts is our Jesus.


We spend time with the Lord and sometimes pray for hours to receive impartation, revelation, and teachings from Him, but that is not the end of the story.

We should pray and spend the same amount of time

for the hearts of people to be open and ready to receive those impartations from us.

Many of us have a lot of good soil, but we have no garden with an open door to impart them.


Let us pray that the Lord may open garden doors for the good soil we carry

in His beautiful name.


We are like a person who goes treasure hunting and finds treasures of all kinds

with high value and gets so excited about his discovery.

He will carry large diamonds in his bags and try to give it to people

and tell them about the value of those treasures.

But he soon finds out not many people know about the value of those treasures

and not many people are interested in even looking at them.


As a Spirit-filled Christian, we are like such a person who goes into the secret place

of the Most High and gathers all kinds of treasures,

but not so many people are interested.

What then?

What should we do?


John 16.7 “But I tell you the truth, it is to your advantage that I go away;

for if I do not go away, the Helper will not come to you; but if I go,

I will send Him to you.”


We need to ask Holy Spirit to open people’s hearts to the treasure that we carry

from above.


See, when we carry earthly treasure, every one gets interested, but when we carry spiritual and heavenly treasures, not so many people are interested.

There has been so much fake spiritual treasure from false doctrines and systems

that many people’s hearts are closed to the heavenly treasures we carry.


The only one who can convince people of the value of the treasure we carry

is Holy Spirit.



journal prompts:


How is the garden of your heart?

When was the last time the garden was watered?

When was the last time the garden was plowed?

When was the last time the garden was weeded?

Can you see the flower that Christ planted?

Perhaps some fruit trees?

Can others pick the fruit? Are they permitted? Have you shared?

Why do we need Holy Spirit to tend this garden?

How can you partner with Holy Spirit to open some garden doors in your family, neighborhood, and work place?


Exercise in your heart:

Using the imagination of your heart, walk through the garden and picture it like a movie.

What do you enjoy about the garden of your heart the most?

What areas do you want to give Jesus and Holy Spirit permission to work in your garden that you may not have given them before?



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This month my husband turned 50. I felt like I needed to find ways to honor him all month, that is July 11- August 11: his birthday month.  In doing this I am asking the Lord for more paths of love to be opened in my heart for him and our marriage. I still have clogs, past hurts, and normal "life happens" stuff stabbing me almost daily. And it seems to be heating up! To me this means a great breakthrough is coming for me, for us . . . and I pray for you too if you are seeking one! The enemy wants us divided and "not in agreement," or just numb and giving up on communication. But we have the highest, strongest, and most passionate love inside of us that is the cutting edge of everything and every situation. All we have to do is remember that. It is true and it is real.


So I am going to spend this month praying and fasting and asking—and I am asking for you too. Whoever reads this, may your marriage climb to heights and depths that you never even imagined. Because His mind-shifting love is definitely beyond any of our comprehension. I want to walk in that. Especially with my man.


So here is my poem for my Kamran. Perhaps you want to write one for yours???


Storm Glory


he stands out like storm glory

walking like a giant reed in the wind of God's breath

anguished and searching

trying on joy for occasional reprieve—usually me

what does he do for himself?

what can I do for him?

a mystical creature who shouldn't have to fit in

though I want him to at times

what am I thinking?

Let him be him—unique and towering in beauty and grace

and passionate apologetics

show me how to see him

hold him up

love him

not like a mother

as many women mother their husbands

like a wife, a friend, a fire, a confidant

standing under his shade in the calm of it



a bird caught in his glory

              free to be me

     for real love is always letting go


who is this man I married?

              let him be

and meet him there in who he is


no chains attached

no manipulating maneuvering

no fear and numb running

brave convo

throwing good fits for deliverance

gritty reality

no faker talk

waker talks!

set the alarm for true love!






let it guide me

into being the best me I can be

with him

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Attention is Love


Love is to pay attention and attention is love.


When we truly give our undivided attention to someone, that is love.

We are all involved in many things and our attention is divided between dozens of things at any given time.


It is very important to pay attention to our surroundings and people.

The truth is, we will not enjoy anything or anyone unless we pay full attention to them.

We can live in a mansion and be so busy that we may never enjoy the mansion we live in.


We can also be so busy with what we do for Christianity

 that we pay no attention to Christ.


We can be so busy providing for our family that we pay no attention to them

and never truly enjoy them.


Joy wants to come through the door of our attention.

We must learn to slow down and pay attention to our surroundings.


We cannot truly enjoy a conversation until we give our full and undivided attention

to what another person is saying.


Most of us are seeking to have more and thinking that more will satisfy us—the truth is that what we already have can satisfy us if we give it more attention!


Even the trees, plants, and animals are calling us to enjoy them through our attention.


Let us love and receive love through paying attention.